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Oh, wow. [Oct. 22nd, 2008|08:48 pm]
It's been a good, long while since I've been here (re: a good, long while!), and I have to say... I'm a little embarrassed by all of my journal entries. Wow! I guess time brings perspective. So, I'm choosing to ignore them all, and hopefully, I'll write blog posts more often.

Hmm... life is pretty good. Fall is my favorite time of the year. It's so beautiful this time of year. And I always do really well with my poetry this time of year. The new term at school just started yesterday, giving me Composition 1 instead of British Literature. I'll definitely miss Brit Lit, but I think Comp will be fun. :D

I still have Yearbook, Chemistry, and Spanish 1. Hmm... I'm really trying my hardest in Yearbook, hoping to get Editor-in-Chief next year. I hate Chemistry, but the teacher's cool and I have it with my BFF. And Spanish... ugh. I think I think that my teacher is hot. Awkward, yes...

Anyway, there isn't a whole lot new with me. Well, actually... I came out. I just got to the point where I was "screw this" and I changed my status on Facebook and just said, yeah, I'm gay. I also unexpectedly came out to my Yearbook class on the first day of school. 

But coming out? It's been fine. Not as big a deal as I imagined it would be. No one really cares that much, haha.

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How About Now [Jun. 9th, 2008|06:08 pm]
[Current Mood |boredbored]

 I update my profile. It's been two weeks!

So... today I got a call from Walgreens, meaning I have  job intervew tomorow. Also meaning I'm scared. Haha.

Also, since I had them downloaded on iTunes, I finally burned these two Tori Amos CDs: The Beekeeper and American Doll Posse. I love Tori Amos. She is so talented! She has a great, unique, powerful voice, and her lyrics are literate, intelligent, and actually leave you thinking, unlike mainstream garbage, singing about how much *insert no-talent mainstream singer/band here* is missing him/her. And while Tori does sing about relationships, quite often actually, she does it with variation, wit, and talent. She uses many complex metaphors, including cars, guitars (Cars and Guitars), soft drinks (Programmable Soda), and even voodoo (In the Springtime of His Voodoo). 

Wow. Didn't expect that Tori rant. Oh well. Haha. Anyway, last week I went to a party, and I saw somebody... somebody whom I like, though I'm unsure of his feelings towards me. I think we flirted... Haha.

Well, that sums up me. Toodles, love!
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Little Edie [May. 23rd, 2008|12:24 am]
[Current Mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]

I watched Grey Gardens with my grandmother this morning. Permeating through her confused looks and laughter, her cat's demanding meows, and the surreal lives of the Beales onscreen was the internal respect forming for "Little" Edie. 

She lived her life completely apart from the world, both literally and figuratively. The home she shared with her mother was very much apart from the other houses in the East Hamptons, overrun with trees and shrubbery. She spent her days on the porch sunbathing and inside arguing with her mother, who rarely left her cluttered bedroom. Edie dressed in costumes - her term - which she put together herself. She had a very definite plan in her life. Her costumes were planned - they were today's (1976's) revolution in fashion. Her future was planned - she was going to leave Grey Gardens behind for something better, which she eventually did - to Florida, after her mother's death. 

Edie was a wonderful woman who basically wanted only to be herself, despite her mother and the oppressiveness of her surroundings. She is definitely my hero of the year.
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More Belief, Less Relief [May. 14th, 2008|08:46 pm]
[Current Mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]

Dear Someone,
It's nice that you totally flirted with me today. It might have made me happy, but it also made me sad. I'll explain now.

I think you're adorable. I had the biggest crush on you. But I got over it. It makes me happy that you might feel the same way I might or might not still feel. But then, I don't know if it was real or not. It certainly seemed like flirting. But who knows for sure? And I don't know if I want a relationship to happen. It could be fun, and exciting. I've got to make up my mind.

I love you (as a friend, right now).
Your friend. 

P.S. Am I a bad person? Tell the truth.

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Threes [May. 8th, 2008|08:48 pm]
[Current Mood |crazycrazy]

Today is a magical day. Let me explain.

On this date occur three things that have to do with the number two and last year - 2007 - which, when you add the digits, makes nine - three times three. This day is the antepenultimate, or second to last, Thursday of school. Last year on this day, it was the second to last Tuesday. This day is also the one year anniversary of the first airing of the antepenultimate, again, second to last, episode of Gilmore Girls. Lastly, this day is the second time I have attended my school's Top 10% Banquet, which occurred on this day one year ago

Also, three things have happened today involving the word test. First, today's test in Journalism was pushed back till tomorrow. Second, the Biology test today was open book. Third and last, a book came today which I didn't think would ever come. That whole ordeal tested my patience. 

One last thing: today I tried out a completely different wardrobe, which involved three key pieces: the purple shirt, the dark skinny jeans, and the checkered socks. 

Today is a magical day.
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Lost in the Cost and Other Time-Tossed Thoughts [May. 7th, 2008|09:09 pm]
[Current Mood |bouncybouncy]

Clothes cost serious cash! I went shopping today, my lovely readers! Aren't you proud of me? If only you could see my fabulous new duds! I bought a red dress shirt and shiny black shoes for the Top 10% of the Class Banquet tomorrow. And, I bought blue-and-white checkered socks and a purple shirt, just for fun. I'll wear those tomorrow with these almost-skinny-jeans I have, and won't I be adorable? 

Ok. Done with the self-flattery. In other news, I'm officially upset with my BFF. She was being such a meanie. I canNOT believe her. But one of my friends says she isn't really mad anymore. But still. Ugh.

Anyway... I've decided to read Brideshead Revisited. I hope it's good. 

I'm done for now. Toodles!

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Misfit Fitness [May. 6th, 2008|10:49 pm]
[Current Mood |calmcalm]

I'm reading signs on the highway, this one tells me that my town is six miles away. I'm listening to "A&E" by Goldfrapp. It's making me think.

I'm seeing winding country roads and the dull, brown plains of the Midwest. Here comes the familiar little buildings of my familiar little town. I can hear my parents chatting in the front seat. My little sister is sitting next to me, talking with my older brother and holding her puppy. Once again, I'm the misfit.

Now, let me tell you, I'm not trying to pull any lame self-pity crap on you, my lovely reader. No, no, no. I'm proud to be the misfit. Even in name I am. My dad and brother have names that start with the letter "M". My mom and sister, the letter "S". I, however, am a "D". "D" for "different". "D" for "delightful". "D" for "daffodowndillies" - aren't they pretty? (I actually prefer heliotropes.)

At school, too, I am a misfit. I'm literary - I'm one of the few people at my school who reads often and for pleasure, much less one who reads Victorian novels for pleasure. I'm rather effeminate - I like purple, rainbows, and unicorns. I'm emotional and heterosocial. My favorite show of all time is Gilmore Girls. And, yes, these are all stereotypical. But what is "effeminacy in men" if not blatant stereotyping? (At least at my school.) Whatever the case, though, I am a misfit.

Would you be offended if I went ahead and took the crown of Super Fabulous King of Misfittage? No? Why, thank you!
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The Slippage of Grips [May. 6th, 2008|05:20 pm]
[Current Mood |worriedworried]

One word: ugh. 

Today is a bad day.
Well, more like today is part of a bad week. Month? Whatever it is, it's irritating. I'm losing my grip on life. 

The year has been pretty good overall, I think. I've done a lot of good reading, a lot of good writing - mostly through that creative writing class last term - and a lot of fabulous thinking. I've grown exponentially as a person. But lately, I feel like I'm losing control. Part of that may be the fact that I have 10 days of school left, and while I love school, I'm definitely ready for a break. I'm ready for a job, for my internship, for my volunteer work, for the summer musical, for the reading, and for plenty of free time. I can't seem to focus in class; I'm just waiting for the bell, especially in Biology (*yawns*). 

I can't seem to force myself to be happy. People are irritating. I just got into a fight with my BFF today, over something completely ridiculous. I'm rethinking my idiocy concerning a potential relationship, and regretting another one. I can't even focus on reading books! I can just completely zone out, not even thinking - practically losing conciousness. I think I need school to be over with. Then, I can maybe get my life back on track. Maybe I can regain my grip.

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